I am starting to worry that I no longer exist. Over the last few days there has been a couple of times that I am not reconized as an actual person... so maybe I am not...
I volunteer on Monday afternoons and Friday mornings at our local Vinnies op-shop. I was there last Monday but on Thursday there was a sign on the opshop door saying that it would be closed on Mondays due to no volunteers. I don't know how the morning vollie felt but I think I/we should have been told that we weren't considered as being there before the sign proclaimed it to the town. It will now be open but I don't know if I am on the roster and the manager couldn't say for sure either. I will find out this afternoon when I show up anyway.
This morning I turn the computer on but can not log on as I don't exist on this computer. Now computers are smart aren't they so if my computer says that I don't exist then maybe I don't.
And I actually know a couple of people that think that we as a race are not actually here but that we imagine what we do and who we are...or some such thing, I found it all too confusing.
Do you sometimes feel less that you're worth because of the unthinking behaviour of other people? I have spoken to the manager that put the sign up and she said not to take it personaly but I did, I do, she now knows that...I will see what happens down there this afternoon. And will see if I come back on the computer after another restart. Hopefully I'll be back as Me before too long.